After this horror show of journey with a metatarsal stress fracture, I’m scared to run again. Really, I had more or less decided to give it up altogether. I’m sure I’ve mentioned this before in one of my fitness update posts.
But the truth is, I find myself thinking a lot about running and all the what-ifs. And the fact that I hate to give up. I’ve stopped being one who gives up easily. But I also don’t want anything like this to happen again. This injury has disrupted everything. It stopped me from doing proper strength training, enjoying spring, fixing up the garden, messed up my mental health, even disrupted music to a certain extent (because of the shoulder problem caused by crutches).
I know it’s probably not 100% true, but it feels like I’ll be back on square one with leg strength and that is a huge disappointment. I was in better form than ever with my squats, even split squats before this happened. I was getting there with lunges and deadlifts. Now all that will have to be worked up all over again. Of course now I’ll know what to do to get back on track but I’m utterly annoyed over it.
But you know what more annoys me? Giving up before even getting anywhere. Previously, my injuries/niggles have always given me more drive, motivation and oomph to get stronger and keep running. I’m not so sure this time. But then I have days when my jävlaranamma comes to the surface and I get into the WTF mode and What would Goggins do?
But I can use the Jävlaranamma in the gym as well, and probably more efficiently than I would in my running shoes.
So what IS my plan with running?
I have a certain goal in mind that would require being able to run 1 km. That would be attainable… just not in a while (which is ok).
If I do decide to try running again, I still have LOADS of strengthening to do before getting back on the road. First I need to get back to where I was before the stress fracture. Then I need to get much stronger because there’s a reason I got the stress fracture and it’s not only to do with training errors or running technique & mechanics. I’ll work on overall strength but will also include runner-specific exercises with single leg strength, balance and mobility, foot strength, lower leg strength, hop exercises etc – because these are things we all need whether we run or not, especially as we age. And if I go back to running, I’ll be more prepared.
So I guess my only plan with running right now is intense strength training. That’s it. If I decide to run again, I’ll start up very differently and probably get in touch with a running coach.
- It was so enjoyable and refreshing
- I loved the feeling of achievement when I made progress
- I loved the challenge
- The fact that I hate giving it up when I’ve invested so much time and energy into running
- There were so many potential plans we could make about running together
- It’s great for the cardio fitness and mental health
- I’d love to do at least one race, 5-10k to prove to myself I’m able to do it
The cons with running
- The injury risk, obviously
- There are other ways to do cardio training with lower risk of injury
- I’ll have more time and energy for strength training if I don’t run
- More focus on strength training if I don’t run
- The enormous learning curve and requirements on the body
My goodness people, it’s really hard to find cons! However, the biggest thing is the injury risk and that’s truly a big one because after this spring, I’m fed up with injuries. I want to be able to live a good life and do all the things I enjoy doing, without restrictions.
I’m back and forth all the time with how I feel about running. Time will tell what I decide. In the meantime, I’ll enjoy walking and strength training, using the rowing machine again, AND we’ve bought a stationary bike! So eventually, I’ll go back to being active in many different ways even if I don’t run.
And I’ll still enjoy following the running blogger community. Running caught my interest and even if I don’t run myself, I enjoy reading updates from people who do – especially now when I’ve had a sneak peak into the world of running.